In Love With A Player

Obviously I'm not your cup of tea
And obviously you prefer her over me
And if I were to die tonight
Would I even cross your mind?
And if I were to take my life
Would you even pray for me?

I know I never was a choice
And I know she was closer than I'll ever be
But you didn't even have the decency to tell me the truth
Instead you filled my heart up with lies,
And promised me they were true
And trust me I believed in you
But you led me to believe that you loved me too.

I put you in front of everything
I made you my top priority
But you took my heart and held it by a thin string
You took this angel and broke it's wings
Usually in situations as such sir , I blame myself.
Now at times like these I look forward to your demise

I was new to love , you were just a player playing the game
you ripped up the innocence inside of me
To this day I dare not whisper your name
Torn i crawl
Oblivious you stand
Hurt i remain
By the man's demand

I will not wish hurt upon you
But i will pray that you reap what you sow
You may try to erase me from your tainted memory
But the evil in you will continue to show
Destroyed be my heart
But strong be my soul
You'll always be a player playing the game
But i'll always remain the love you threw away